1/5/22

Year-End Countdown: Film & Series Edition

1/05/2022
It is strange that we have been five days past the 2021. Looking back we were still trying to make end meets, thinking that we might barely survive the year so we're silently praying for the universe to give us even just a belated plot twist. No plot twist to me, though.

If 2020 felt like a passerby, the year followed felt almost like a bird of passage. It wasn't as quick and blurry, but kind of in a hopeful phase- taking more time then to test the water, to wait for a different trajectory, but still moving persistent. With the stretch of pandemic from a catastrophic 2019, everything has to still fit in with the new normal- just like cinema, which for more than a year has also had to compress their ambitions to a smaller screen.

Then the big screen came back later in 2021, but people are bothered with the threat of the pandemic still lurking in the corner. I haven't taken the bold chance to set foot in any theaters. I think if it weren't for streaming platforms like Netflix and other creative options (LOL) I wouldn't be able to maximize my watching experience. So, as this year finally ended, here are the movies and series that outline my 2021.


1. ONE SPRING NIGHT


I started One Spring Night later in 2020. This one might not be my favorite of all the Kdramas I have watched so far, but it is memorable. It was the first series that I made a not-so review about. It helped me to write again after a long while.

If there's one thing that made me not back out from watching it, it was probably because of its bold depiction of what life is. The characters are all faulty and human, you see yourself from their decisions, and their often stubborn refusal to look at the things, almost made me quit because it's too real and annoying to watch.

It also tackles different significant issues that are especially taboo in Asian countries like South Korea. It is a slow burn and I am not really sure if everyone would enjoy its phasing since you need an extra energy to appreciate this series from its silent moments of reconsideration to every character's determined pursuit of love and tender beginning of a new life.

2. HYMN OF DEATH


This limited drama series was unexpectedly good. It was short, no argument, but I enjoyed it from the beginning until its final episode. I think, looking back, I realized that this series is already good enough to have three episodes. It doesn't need to be loaded with dramas, twists and turns, and surprise endings. The amount of melancholia both shared by the characters sufficed the tragedy of their fates. In a world that deprived them of the chance to live freely, they jump their way out even if it will take them to their own's grave just for the pursuit of the life they ever wanted for themselves.

3. THE SMILE HAS LEFT YOUR EYES


After Cheese in the Trap and Reply 1988, finally I found another favorite to put in my list. These three series tortured me the most, crumpled my sanity, and left me with regretful longing. The Smile has left you Eyes, just from the title, is already giving me the impression of profound loneliness and oppressive emptiness. It is not recommendable if you are not welcoming to these emotions. Throughout the series, it is quite evident that they never want you to be tickled with colorful butterflies nor with any kind of sweet moments to take delight in whenever you feel that romantic helplessness. It just wants you to suffer- a plain motive.

So, if you want to suffer, then that's when I want to recommend this series. It will surely does make your smile leave your eyes.

4. FLIP A COIN


When I thought that I had to just wait for the days to come before One Ok Rock's concert in Manila will finally happen, there came the unsought pandemic we never asked for and killed the joy of my anticipation- it could have been my second concert after iKON but it never happened even after almost two years now. I am still waiting for them. In fact, I never surrender my ticket nor ask for a refund because I am holding on to that hope that it will happen sooner. And I found that hope. It may not be the announcement that I have been waiting for my whole life, but it was a comforting snap of "hey, we still got you buddy!" when I saw the poster of their upcoming documentary on Netflix. I was beyond ecstatic.

After I watched Flip A Coin, I was literally crying. It was midnight when I finished it and felt like I have never been that emotional for a long while. Their combined passion thundered into life as they hit the latter part of their virtual concert, it was electrifying and heartfelt. This documentary cemented more of my breathless adoration towards One Ok Rock. I am a big fan and how I wish sooner I will finally see them performing live.

5. BROOKLYN NINE-NINE


The final season of Brooklyn Nine-Nine was released midway through 2021. I am still somewhere on its fourth season and admittedly I am having a crisis on continuing the series. This comedy series is the first one that I enjoyed since I have never been a fan of such genre. It is also American which adds up to my hesitation if I should watch it. Then I watched it. It was surprisingly fun and more than its comic exaggeration and jocular depiction of detective lives, I was hooked by their witty dialogues. I am happy that I started with Brooklyn Nine-Nine in venturing American series since it is hard for me to appreciate American humor.

6. BECAUSE THIS IS MY FIRST LIFE


If there is one more Kdrama that has been consistently recommended, at least across my social media, it might be this series called "Because This is My First Life" . As fans often describe it as philosophical, and I was at that time undecided of what should I watch, I finally gave it a go but without necessary intention of seeing the whole thing. I can agree that they are right all along when they say that this series is uplifting– not in a spiritual manner, but more like a comfort in disguise.

This Kdrama will tell you that everything is all our first time regardless of where we are in life. We are all turning over a new leaf every single day. It might sometimes stray from reality and becomes cliché after a while but it is always saved by their philosophical thoughts and heartwarming realizations which are very comforting. I like how every episode triggers me to reflect on my life decisions and how their dialogues echo my thoughts and trepidations about future.

If you want to be intrigue by this series, then try to just at least read their beautiful lines here: Because This is My First Life Quotes

7. NORAGAMI


It took me a very long while to finally put myself back to watching Anime series. I didn't know how exactly I drifted away from the world that once familiar to me, but it felt like ages since the last time I wanted to watch an Anime. With Noragami, I was honestly trying to wait for it to digest in me. And it happened since it has somehow caught my fancy to keep watching it because I like the storyline, however when I started its second season, I lost my connection with it along the way. I don't really like it when there's some kind of romance going on between two Anime characters, I find it weird and feel like it is undermining the aspect of the story since I am used to that romance is not a leading staple ingredient of an Anime series.

But still, Noragami deserved a spot in my Top 10 because I really enjoyed the storyline. Aside from that, its OSTs are so great! If I can include some honorable mentions in my Year-End Countdown: Music Edition, I will definitely include theirs in it.

8. RUROUNI KENSHIN (FILM SERIES)


Also this year I decided to re-watch all Rurouni Kenshin films in the series as follow: Rurouni Kenshin Origins (2012), Rurouni Kenshin: Kyoto Inferno (2014), Rurouni Kenshin: The Legend Ends (2014), Rurouni Kenshin: The Final (2021), and Rurouni Kenshin: The Beginning (2021). This Japanese period action-adventure film is based on the manga of the same name. I think, more people recognize it as Samurai X, including myself not until I found out it later on. And although I haven't seen other live-action movies, I couldn't agree more when they say that this one is by far the most convincing adaptation out there. It is also my first time enjoying a Japanese film considering that I am still new, and venturing out Japanese cinema.

I could say that all the fighting scenes are worth watching. It makes me anticipate for another round of sword fighting, some exhibition of wall running, and breathless encounter of swords-- slashing, slicing, and swishing at a high-speed.

I also like to commend that it is such a good decision to put his romance with Kaoru in periphery. Sometimes it is just all right to tease the viewers with a little touch of romance between characters. Considering that these films follow the life of Kenshin from his penitence back toward into his barbaric past as Battousai, then other important aspects should put forward to unveil his history as that samurai who has a cross-like scar on his face.

9. THE SILENT SEA


Among the many genres there are, science fiction is perhaps my least favorite one. I couldn't say if it has been rooted by my inability to grasp scientific concepts quick or just my reluctance to multitask things when my mind wants only to focus on making sense of the storyline. Maybe I don't like the idea of asking me for another surge of energy when I have already set the right amount of it, in short, I only want to keep up with the story without having to recall what is a stimuli again. I don't to exhaust my memory when my intention of watching a film is to be entertained.

But seeing The Silent Sea going against other big films on Netflix, and still securing at least a higher spot than everyone might expected, has convinced me to see if it's worth a watch.

For a thrilling eight episodes, I was able to watch the series for just about three or four days. And it was even on weekdays!

I appreciate that The Silent Sea is not a science "science" fiction. If you know what I mean. It doesn't suddenly throw vocabularies here and there, and perhaps the production doesn't want it when the viewers urged to pause the video just so they could decipher what was just said. They make it friendlier especially to someone like me who is never a fan of sci-fi films nor series. Admittedly, the short series starts off rather slowly. It is like taking their viewers with them to the space-- with a labored breathing, heavy-footed movements. It needs time for you to digest, but it is not exactly boring. As soon as they inch closer to their mission, the more truths unearth to them.

10. OUR BELOVED SUMMER


This one is the only on-going series in my list. As of writing, the tenth episode was already up on Netflix, and here I am keeping myself away from any potential spoilers that might have already been gracing my Twitter feeds. Of all the late releases in 2021, I could say that Our Beloved Summer is clearly and by far my current favorite. I even anticipated it even before it premieres, that is how I was hook the very moment I came across their teaser on YouTube. Right there, their chemistry was spot-on that I was waiting like a mad woman for the first episode to arrive.

This is another gem to put in my treasure chest after The Smile Has Left Your Eyes. I enjoy this romantic-comedy series so much that I am going crazy every after episode. I like all their soundtracks, and just the fact that I didn't veer off course when I found out that this is going to be about the ins and outs of their breakup with that common stranger to enemies to lovers to ex-lovers trope, means that I genuinely love this drama.

1/2/22

Year- End Countdown: Music Edition

1/02/2022

2021 hasn't officially ended yet, and here I am already in the process of listing down my Top 10 songs that I had, for a long time being, put torturously on repeat without the world knowing. Putting my earphones on is actually one of the best decisions I made this year when I had to look steady despite losing my cool already during working hours. 

Listening to my playlist especially during afternoon, two or three hours after I take my lunch, has been my routine since the year started. It is a test of patience when I had to exhaustingly look for a fresh and friendly kind of playlist-- the ones with some songs I am already familiar with but are mixed in with other songs that have this certain snap of mystery to tell to a first-time listener. It is more than rare to find something like that since you are more comfortable listening to your self-made playlist. Speaking of which, this year I have gone through many self-made playlists: I think, I have created five or more which at one point I got sick of that's why I deleted them all and made another one where I don't think it followed a certain theme. I have other recommendations from Pinterest which I just listened to for at least two times in a row then have already forgotten its existence since then, today I have only one considered main playlist which I named WFH Playlist (LOL!!!) however, I've noticed that I don't play it anymore, but instead listen more now to the songs I liked but not officially added to my playlist. 

My Top 10 songs are not, FYI, all new releases. Most are already years old which also have been my favorite but then forgotten until I remembered it again somewhere randomly. There are a lot of songs that I listened to for the first time while there are also others that feel like it is the first time listening to them. It is kind of hard squeezing so many good tracks into just "top 10" but I had to, to allow space for a little history and story. Here we go:

(Maybe I am going to list all the songs from the ones I am more connected just recently to the songs that have been sitting on my playlist but still feel refreshing and deserve to get an apology from me for murdering the replay button)

12/4/21

Lest

12/04/2021



Dearest,
I feel like, for a while, I haven't been at rest.
Lately, I don't feel much like myself or at my best.
In this world, that's just the way of things, I guess.
Life, yes, 
it sucks—
one moment, it's like a gritty urban drama,
then shortly after, it shifts into a sidesplitting jest.
It's like the splendid view of an erupting volcano—a beautiful disaster—
only to turn into some kind of old-time mess.
I suppose it’s a quest or a test:
to brave that sea with nothing but a vest.
So yes, 
step into the world dressed
with spirit and zest.

Greatly,
Dearest

Nay, Nasan Ka Na?

12/04/2021



Ilang araw na mababaw ang luha,
siguro ilang araw na rin kasing pinipigilan ang pag-iyak.
Nakakulong sa dibdib ang bigat
na hindi maibulalas.
Ang hirap buhatin,
nakakasakal sa lalamunan—
parang may pighating nakabara roon,
gusto nang kumawala,
pero tinitikom ang bibig
para hindi umimpit
ang sakit na ilang araw nang binobote
ng nagpapanggap na tapang.

Lihim na tumatakas ang luha, minsan,
tuwing walang tao at nakapako
ang titig sa kawalan.
Minsan tulala,
tinatanaw ang mga alaala
na sana’y kayang buhayin
ng pagnilay-nilay.

Nasaan ka na kaya, Nay?

Sumisikip ang dibdib tuwing
iniisip na marahil naglalakbay
ka lang mag-isa…
Tinatawag ang mga pangalan namin,
pero hindi na abot ng boses mo
ang mundong nilisan mo na.
At ang sakit isipin na hindi na kita makikita
tuwing umaga, paggising ko.
Hindi ka na hihingi sa akin ng pabor
na isabay ang kape mo sa pagtimpla ko.
Hindi na kita masusubuan ng kanin at hiniwa-hiwang saging.
Hindi mo na kami makukulit at pauutusan
na matulog sa gabi.

Nay, nasaan ka na?

Umiiyak ang puso ko.
Nalulungkot ang puso ko.

Hindi na uli kita makikita.
Gusto kitang makita, tulad ng mga nakaraang karaniwang araw.
Gusto kong muling mabuhay sa mga panahong iyon.
Dahil kasabay ng paglisan mo sa pisikal na mundo
ang pagpanaw ng bahagi ng puso ko.


SEE IT AS IT IS. NAME IT. STOP IT.

12/04/2021

There's a reason why, for the first time in a long while, I feel compelled to post something here on my account. I’m doing this in the hope that it reaches the person it’s meant for. Some might think I should confront him directly through a personal message rather than make him a blind item like this. However, his actions have gone too far—beyond anything I could have imagined. Not naming him is my way of dismissing his existence because a person like him doesn’t deserve to be addressed by his name. Instead, I’ll call him what he truly is: a HYPOCRITE, a COWARD, and TRASH.

Yesterday, Mama came home from her barangay duty with puffy eyes. I thought it was just another day for her, but when she came to me, fighting back tears, I almost cried myself. She told me about someone who, for over a year now, has been targeting her with sexist and cruel remarks. At first, I tried to brush it off, thinking, What else can I expect from a scumbag? But as she revealed more, my heart grew heavier with anger and hatred. How could someone stoop so low?

Mama had finally had enough and denounced him at the barangay. His defense? “It was just a joke.” Biro lang daw. What a joke, indeed.

"Hindi ka naman kagandahan..."

"Ginapang mo lang siguro ang asawa mo"

"Hindi ka nakapagtapos ng pag-aaral..."

"Nakikita pa kitang naka-panty nung bata ka pa"

These are the jokes he claims to have made. But no matter how I look at them, there’s nothing funny about them. Jokes are not meant to degrade or humiliate. What he’s said is not funny—it’s vile. And what’s worse, he knows exactly what’s happening in our lives, both past and present. How he gets his information, I don’t know, and I don’t care. What bothers me is how he uses that knowledge against Mama to spread malicious rumors.

He even had the audacity to complain about Mama not liking his Facebook posts and to joke about why she doesn’t treat him to food. How absurd!

What I can’t understand is how he feels entitled to say such things to Mama when they’re not even close—and has been doing so for over a year. Even if they were close (thankfully, they’re not), he’s old enough to know what’s appropriate and what isn’t. And now he’s upset that Mama reported him? Let me say this: I am beyond proud of Mama for standing up for herself. She knew when enough was enough, and she acted on it.

While I am proud of her bravery, I’m also filled with shame knowing this man plans to run for barangay office. How can someone so trashy think he’s fit to serve the community? The way he treats my mother speaks volumes. If he can do this to one woman, how can anyone believe that women in our community would be safe with him in power? He doesn’t even know the difference between a joke and an insult.

Hearing about this while I was on my work shift completely threw me off. His so-called jokes aren’t funny—they’re infuriating. And no one should ever blame a person for not finding their "jokes" amusing. Humor isn’t universal, and if your words hurt someone, that’s your cue to stop and apologize. Continuing despite their discomfort shows how problematic you are.

I keep replaying everything he’s said to Mama, and I can’t imagine how she managed to stay composed. Just hearing it secondhand fills me with rage; how much more pain must she have felt enduring it firsthand? It breaks my heart that this has been happening for so long and that I only found out about it yesterday. It breaks my heart that she’s been carrying this burden alone.

I’m posting this here now, hoping to raise awareness about a serious issue. Rape remarks, sexist humor, and demeaning jokes—against women or any minority group—are never acceptable. They’re never funny.

SEE IT FOR WHAT IT IS. NAME IT. STOP IT.

This was written on November 17, 9:54 AM. I was seething with anger as I wrote this, and I still am. Initially, I wanted to post this on Facebook, but fear held me back. I worry that doing so might lead to more bullying for Mama, not just from him but from others who support him. I fear that our neighbors, swayed by his "good deeds" (a thinly veiled attempt to buy their votes), might turn against us.

I feel guilty for not doing more for Mama. I should act, but I’m afraid it will cause her more trouble than resolution.

I hate that I’m waiting for another wave of anger to push me into action. I don’t want Mama to go through this again.

For now, I’m sharing this here to let it out into the world. This may be the least I can do, but I know I’m capable of more. I just don’t know when.

SO WHEN, THEA?