Showing posts with label Kdrama. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Kdrama. Show all posts

6/3/25

Lost in Starlight

6/03/2025

Nothing beats the feeling of starting a movie randomly on a day you least expected to watch, and yet to finish it with a bursting and uncontrollable happy buzz.

Although it wasn’t exactly random, I had been anticipating this movie after coincidentally finding it on the app while browsing for a new set of movies to add to my watchlist. From the trailer, I immediately downloaded an offline copy of it, only to find out upon watching that it hadn’t been released yet—it was only the trailer that I had saved to my library.

I didn’t know exactly how long I had waited for it to be available, but when I checked again last Sunday, the full movie was already out.

Then came Monday. The whole day seemed undecided on whether it would rain or shine, so both happened almost alternately throughout the day. I had just finished my daily practice on Duolingo for my Japanese language lessons, and I wasn’t particularly in the mood to take my usual after-work nap.

“Lost in Starlight!,” I suddenly exclaimed under my breath.

It was actually my first time watching an animated Korean film—if Solo Leveling doesn’t count. I had absolutely no expectations going into it. All I knew was that the voice actors were Kim Tae-Ri and Hong Kyung. That was enough to spark my curiosity. I remembered skimming the synopsis when I watched the trailer, but by the time I sat down to watch it, I had completely forgotten what it was about. Looking back, I think that worked in my favor. There’s a unique kind of joy in discovering something with a blank slate, without any idea of what you’re about to experience. It reminded me of the first time I watched Before Sunrise. I had stumbled upon it years ago while Googling “the greatest films of all time to watch before you die.” It was on one of those lists. I didn’t know anything about it, didn’t even bother reading the plot summary. I just trusted my instincts and pressed play.

Two hours later, I was still in front of the screen—completely moved. I had watched it in low quality on Facebook, but I didn’t care. I was heartbroken by how the story ended, not because it was tragic, but because it was so real. And yet, underneath all that, I felt euphoric. It was the first time I had ever truly loved a movie.

I felt like I had fallen in love—either right at that moment, or during the entire time I was watching it. I couldn’t even place the happiness I felt. It was something I had discovered on my own, without any recommendations or hype, and that made it even more special. I savored every scene, every piece of dialogue. I was stunned that a film—so simple, so stripped-down—could affect me so deeply. No dramatic twists, no flashy visuals. Just two people talking, a story that flowed naturally, moving steadily forward. And I loved every second of it.

And I felt this too after watching Lost in Starlight. I might sound hyperbolic—and I know I am—right now, riding the peak of that post-movie high. This film might not even be that good for others, but I'm speaking from the moment, and I want to capture that here in this blog. I want to document how great this film feels to me, despite the fact there are loads of animated romance films out there I could find and watch.

I’m telling you, it’s been ages since I last felt that “kilig” feeling—that tingling, sensational buzz you get from a romantic film. The last movie that really did that for me was Before Sunrise. After that? I honestly can’t remember if anything else ever hit the same way. And now here I am, gushing over the hopeless romantic vibe of this animated film.

Let me start with the animation. It reminds me of those cyberpunk-style images I see on Pinterest whenever I’m hunting for a new desktop wallpaper. It’s funky, 4K-ish, and has a touch of Spiderverse visuals—but with a Japanese anime twist. It’s not clumsy, where a character looks off when viewed from another angle. It’s polished, kinda dreamy, and clearly futuristic, which makes sense since it’s a romantic sci-fi film. The colors are bursting like a comic book, again giving me Spiderverse vibes. This film is legit high quality—and honestly, every shot looks like it’s made to be screenshot.

The story is definitely not new. When we talk about sci-fi, there are myriads of films—mostly Western—that come to mind. The first one I thought of was Interstellar. It was actually in the back of my mind while I was watching this. So the challenge, or at least what I had in mind early on, was: how could Lost in Starlight be different? What new thing could it offer that would make it stand out and have its own identity? Or would it just be another sci-fi-ish film trying to give yet another perspective on what life might be like in the future and the never-ending expedition into outer space?

To be honest, I actually liked how the film stayed grounded and didn’t get too ambitious in that part. Right from the start, it was clear they weren’t aiming for a full-on sci-fi plot with heavy jargon, random equations, or Einstein name-drops. It wasn’t like that at all. I’d say it’s more of a romantic film than a sci-fi one. The sci-fi elements are just in the background. So if you're expecting something like Interstellar but animated, this isn’t it. But if you’re in the mood to feel butterflies in your stomach, then this one’s for you.

I was seriously blushing while watching them—from start to end.

It didn’t even feel like they were animated. I saw them as real people. The gestures, the expressions, the little movements—it all felt real.

One scene that made me swoon was that night when they had to grab another Coke. They stopped somewhere, rested a bit, and just chitchatted. Nan-young asked Jay about his lifelong passion for music, and Jay said he was waiting for it to come back to him. Nan-young, listening intently, started moving her fingers like tiny footsteps—step by step, inching closer to his elbow resting on the railing. Then she said, “It’s coming back now to you.” Their tipsy faces, especially Jay’s—he was already blushing from her gestures—blushed even more. It was so subtle but it hit me hard.


There were actually several swoon-worthy moments throughout the film that I could talk about—but I’ll keep them to myself so I don’t spoil anything for anyone.

The story was set in 2066, which is about four decades from now. That made me pause and wonder: will I still be alive by then? If so, I’d be around 67 years old. Not too old, right?

What really stood out to me was how far technology had come in their world. There was an airborne public vehicle with a transparent body, and a wristwatch that looked way more advanced than anything we have now. I don’t even remember seeing anyone with a phone in their hand. It made me curious—what will happen to gadgets like our phones after a few more decades? Will they vanish completely, replaced by something we can’t even imagine yet?

One thing that fascinated me was their camera. It could summon the person you were calling, almost like they were there with you—invisible, but able to move around freely and see everything around you in 360 degrees. It felt both magical and slightly eerie.

These were just a few of the thoughts and observations I had while watching.

And then... came the OSTs! Don’t even get me started on those.

Obviously, music plays a big role in this movie, especially since Jay is a musician. I think that one scene where Nan-young played a demo song she accidentally found on Clouds—without knowing it was Jay’s—really marked the moment he realized he was doomed for her. Of all the people in the world, the chances were so slim, and yet the girl he happened to bump into while out on a delivery turned out to be the same person who had downloaded his song just minutes before he deleted it. And it wasn’t just any song—it was Nan-young’s favorite. Small world, right?

I haven’t listened to the full playlist yet. It’s not available on Spotify or even YouTube. Strangely, though, it is on Instagram. I found “Bon Voyage” when I tried adding music to a picture I posted. 

I couldn’t stop talking about how this movie made me feel. Right after watching it, I opened my Letterboxd app, gave it a glimmering 5 stars, and added it to my liked movies without a second thought.


One thing I allow myself when rating a movie is to go with how it made me feel. I don’t try to be too strict or overly objective. I don’t want to judge a film only by its structure, deeper themes, or the technical standards that supposedly make a film “great.” If it moves me, that’s enough.

It honestly makes me feel giddy whenever I find a movie that hits just right. It lifts my mood, makes my day, and even inspires me to write things like this.

Lost in Starlight is a well-made film—and truly impressive for South Korea’s first animated feature. Animation isn’t something the Korean industry is widely known for (yet), but I can see the ambition and heart behind this project. It’s the kind of movie you’ll want to share with your friends—which I already did.

4/27/25

House of Hummingbird

4/27/2025

There’s really something about watching and finishing a movie on a Sunday afternoon. House of Hummingbird had been sitting in my Letterboxd watchlist for quite some time. Like many other films—and like the usual excuse I give whenever I can’t find time to watch something—life happened. Sure, it did. But life happens every day, so deep down, I knew I was just making excuses. I recently shared that I’ve been trying to live with more slowness, softness, and stillness. And yet, there I was again, spiraling into another round of doom scrolling. It usually takes me days to convince myself that it’s okay to slip up now and then—but really, I was just tolerating my own indolence. So, a few days ago, I made a conscious effort to get back on track: starting the day with a 10-minute stretching routine before shifting into work mode, eating meals on time, and taking my vitamins to jumpstart the day. When work gets too intense, I make sure to take small breaks: breathing deeply, stepping away from my desk, playing with Pino. Since summer’s been especially harsh and unforgiving in the afternoons, I’ve made it a habit to shower during my lunch break and again before bed. It helps cool down the lingering heat clinging to my skin. After clocking out (and if I’m in a decent mood) I’ll clean the floor downstairs and wash whatever dishes are left in the sink. I have a rule: no lying down until I actually intend to nap. So maybe I come off like a clean freak, but really, I’m not. I just like having a rhythm. I spend the rest of the afternoon on things I enjoy: picking up The Goldfinch from where I last left off, checking a film off my watchlist, and making sure to squeeze in a bit of Duolingo time learning Japanese.


I usually take a nap for an hour or so, then get myself ready to take Pino out for a late-afternoon walk. After we return home, everything flows naturally into our evening routine. Before ending the day, I always do another round of stretching, followed by a journal entry.

Sounds hectic?

Of course, I know life is unpredictable, and it’s important to leave space for spontaneity. Still, ever since I started practicing slow living, I’ve felt more grounded and focused. I no longer spend so much time on activities that don’t add value to my day. This shift has brought clarity and I’ve realized I’m not actually busy; I’ve just been managing my time poorly. In the span of a week or so, I managed to finish two movies—Everything Everywhere All at Once and The Life List. And today, just earlier, House of Hummingbird. House of Hummingbird is the kind of film I’d place beside Perfect Days and Paterson. It portrays the quiet, imperfect life of a family—one that feels real. They cry awkwardly at the dinner table, bicker and fight, and secretly wish they had the freedom to live apart. It captures the messiness of living under the same roof, where love and tension quietly coexist.


One of the most relatable and remarkable scenes for me is when Dae-Hoon, the second child and only son, breaks down near the end of the film. It happens on the same day the Seongsu Bridge collapses. Soo-Hee, the eldest, had taken the route where the bus involved in the accident passed through. To the family’s immense relief, she survived...only because she was running late that day. At dinner, their father casually brings up the incident, trying to downplay the tension and lighten the mood, even as everyone remains visibly shaken. I didn’t expect Dae-Hoon to be the one to break. He reveals how deeply affected he was by the accident, despite how emotionally distant the family had seemed from one another. It reminded me of a similar moment with their father. When he took Eun-Hee, the youngest, to the hospital and learned she needed surgery for a lump behind her right ear. Both were stunned, but it was the father who appeared more shaken. Like Dae-Hoon, it was unexpected to see him cry. These rare cracks in their stoic family dynamic made the emotional undercurrent of the film feel all the more powerful.


I would say that their family is very much like ours. I grew up in a home where it felt more natural not to talk things out—where we let things pass until they faded from memory. We were awkward when faced with moments that called for visible vulnerability. We often fled from opportunities to show our real and raw emotions. When someone cried, it made everyone uncomfortable, simply because we never learned how to handle those moments. I still remember the night I broke down in tears. It was during pandemic and my work started at 7 a.m., and by the time it reached 9 p.m. (which is well past my eight working hours) I was still pushing through, trying to meet my quota. I was exhausted, hopeless, desperate for rest, but couldn’t stop. In the middle of my frustration, I accidentally broke my eyeglasses. The lenses popped out of the frame, and I couldn’t see anymore. I hated my life in that moment. Instead of forcing myself to keep working, I decided to take a shower and clear my mind. But even that didn’t go right. The towel I needed was hanging from the ceiling, and I couldn’t find the hook I use to grab it. Frustrated all over again, I gave up, slumped to the floor, and cried hard. I couldn’t hold it in any longer. And as expected, they just watched me. No one handed me a towel. No one offered comfort. No one even asked what was wrong. They just whispered among themselves in the background, then quietly went downstairs to eat dinner. I didn’t get mad. Of course not. Why would I? We simply weren’t raised to cry in front of each other. It was never part of our home.


So, I found that scene deeply relatable. I guess, at that moment, Dae-Hoon just couldn’t hold it in any longer. It had become too heavy, too much to suppress even if he didn’t want to let it show.



The next scene takes place the day after their parents had a fight. That night, they argued over their eldest daughter, and in a burst of anger, their mother accidentally hit their father. The night lamp shattered, and shards of glass cut into his forearm. Later, in their shared room, Eun-Hee asked her sister why their family was so messed up. Soo-Hee didn’t answer the question directly, but simply said that maybe they should all live separately. The next morning, Eun-Hee walked out of her room to find her parents laughing together in front of the TV, as if nothing had happened the night before. And just like Eun-Hee, I’ve felt that same strange comfort whenever I saw my own parents make amends after a fight. It warmed my heart, bringing a sense of relief. But at the same time, it left me wondering—is that what being married is like? Do couples argue so intensely that they seem like they want to kill each other, only to laugh together again once the anger has died down? It reminded me of a scene from Marriage Story, starring Scarlett Johansson and Adam Driver. There’s a moment where their fight escalates into shouting, cursing, and bitter accusations. Then, in the heat of the moment, Adam’s character breaks down and screams that he wishes she were dead. The words catch even him by surprise. Scarlett’s character is stunned too but there’s something tender in her expression, as if she understood the pain behind his words, and knew he didn’t truly mean it. As Adam collapses into tears, she quietly approaches and embraces him. It was heartbreaking.


Even though it happened a long time ago, I can still hear the sounds of my parents' fights. The crashing of plates hitting the floor. The sharp, painful edge in my mother’s voice. The silence of my father, who would just sit on the bed, eyes fixed on a basketball game on TV, trying to ignore her outburst. My siblings and I, as if by routine, would quietly head downstairs to our cousins’ room, trying to distance ourselves though we could still hear everything. I used to brush it off, but the truth is, those arguments stayed with me. They shaped how I viewed married life, even as a child. And while the impact still lingers, I’ve come to think: maybe it’s better to hear them argue than to watch them ignore each other completely? Just like in the movie scene, I’d see them the next day—talking, laughing, acting as if nothing had happened. I guess... that’s just how some married couples are?


Before the family found out about Eun-Hee’s lump behind her right ear, we saw her quietly going to the doctor on her own. At just fifteen, she took the bus by herself and faced the possibility of bad news...alone. I don’t think I could’ve done that at her age. Commuting by myself, seeing a doctor despite all the worst-case scenarios running through my head? I would’ve needed my mom with me.


What struck me even more was that Eun-Hee didn’t get angry at her parents for not being there. She stayed calm, composed, and brave. Earlier in the film, there was a scene where she approached her mom, who was resting in the living room, and mentioned the discomfort she was feeling in her ear. Her mother acknowledged it, but she didn’t seem too concerned. There was no sense of urgency, instead she quickly shifted the conversation and even asked Eun-Hee to put pain relief patches on her shoulder blades. That moment felt painfully familiar. There were many times when I told my mom I wasn’t feeling well, only for her to brush it off or redirect the conversation. She would often say something like, “I feel that way too. I just drink this or that and I’m fine.” Even now, it still happens. So over time, I stopped telling her when something felt wrong with my body. I learned to keep it to myself.


Watching House of Hummingbird feels like watching your own family reflected in a mirror. It captures the quiet, sometimes suffocating rhythms of a household with an average life status. One where everyone knows each other too well, down to the point of getting irritated by something as small as the way someone breathes. Growing up, I used to wish I had a room of my own. Somewhere I could feel my emotions freely and release them as they came. But we didn’t have rooms. The only privacy we had, if you could even call it that, was the small spot we each occupied on a shared bed. The only safe spaces to be vulnerable were either in the bathroom or somewhere outside the house. There were moments when we hated each other. And many more moments when I wished I came from a different kind of family—one that would let me speak my thoughts without being dismissed. A family that would really listen. One that celebrated small wins, showed care openly, and offered emotional support without hesitation. At home, we were on our own. We fought our own battles in silence, too busy surviving to look after each other emotionally. This movie quietly, yet powerfully, reflects that life. My life. My family. It’s a poem told through visual metaphors, gentle cinematography, and a masterful use of silence. It teaches you how to understand life without the noise.

It’s beautiful, in short.


It carries the color of something vintage and like the faded hue of an old newspaper at times. Its sound is like the rustling of leaves at night, when the streetlights glow in a soft, warm orange, breathing gently into the stillness of the dark, star-dotted sky. Its scent reminds me of coffee, rich and lingering, its steam hanging in midair, suspended in moments of stillness, even amidst the low hum of conversations in a crowded space. Like Eun-Hee, when she sat down to write a letter to her favorite teacher, Young-Ji, she asked—not just her, but perhaps the universe, or maybe simply herself—a question that echoed my own quiet wonderings: “Will my life start to shine someday?”



The same teacher, during a night stroll with Eun-Hee, once shared something about hands. She said: "Whenever you feel sad and tired, just look at your fingers. When you can’t feel anything, move your fingers." That scene hit me deeply. When we’re feeling down, it often feels like there’s no point in continuing. Everything becomes bland, hopeless, and colorless. We can feel stagnant—unable to move, incapable of doing anything. But when she said, “Just move your fingers,” I found myself doing exactly that. Sometimes, when we feel like we can’t do anything, even the simple act of moving a finger can remind us that we can do something. It doesn’t matter if it's something grand or just the tiniest movement. We don’t need to perform something extraordinary to prove our capability. Sometimes, even the smallest action, like moving a finger, takes effort. It requires courage. And that’s enough. Life doesn’t have to be extraordinary. Sometimes, life is found in the simplest, often overlooked moments. Life is life, no matter what.

4/4/21

The Hymn of Death: A Not-So Review

4/04/2021

Whenever I get the feeling of watching something again, there's always a tinge of uncertainty that comes along the same moment. Like last month, I felt like I had been a bum for wandering up aimlessly on Netflix for almost some time. I was literally doing nothing but scrolling here and there on the platform and always ended up lost in the long run of searching. I was not exactly planning to consume another Korean drama series since I already did it with One Spring Night which I never intended but just so happened that it was followed not long after then by Once in a Summer. I actually considered the thought of exploring some other Asian films especially a Taiwanese film, however, I could not find any among the bunch that could match my mood well at that time of drought. 

Basically, I was like on a trial-and-error phase for days. This could also mean that for days I was sleeping my worries away for hardly settling on something to watch. I was not sure if I was just extra picky at that time and was delusional for expecting that the film I wanted to watch will unfold a spectacular scene the very moment it starts. Thus, I decided to just maybe stretch my patience out and give the film that I would watch more time to roll by without the constant pauses of hesitation. After scrolling with the hopes of stumbling upon something, I came across this Korean period drama which I had seen already before but had never actually been interested to see. However, at that time, I clicked it without much conscious thought. The preview automatically played but I decided to further watch some of its clips on YouTube just to know something a little more of this drama. So, after some little exposure from it, I finally decided to watch The Hymn of Death

The moment the series started, there's no really such an exaggerated feeling of discovery, but just a slight nod of acknowledgement. As of writing, I could still recall flashes of image on its pilot episode. Within few seconds already rolling by, I could say I was open still on the possibility that I might back out if ever it will not stir even a slightest interest in me. And surprisingly enough, it actually did.

The film has a bleak image. It opened in a moving ship swaying across the calmness of the ocean. There was a patrol guard on duty, checking each pole of the vessel through the reach of his flashlight. On the top of that scene, the opening credits vaguely flashing by whenever the camera passed by a wall while still following the guard who was then being pulled by the distinct humming lullabies from a phonograph. I should not forget to note how I initially hooked by the camera movement specially when it zoomed out from the back of the patrol guard. From that scene, I was slowly and already getting the groove of the drama just like how the ship was sailing stilly in the course of night without probably anticipating what would unfold thereafter. The patrol guard stopped by an open room. The vinyl playing was the only thing there with life, the rest seemed undisturbed. After turning to another direction, the guard spotted a note beside the suitcase.



There, I already felt a heightened sense of foreboding. The note was not a plain apology but a foreshadowing of what has already happened by the time it dawned on him what was the note telling him. With enlarged eyes, he stormed out the room and went straight to that part of ship wherein he was stopped by the still-like image of two pairs of shoes both aligned to the direction of the comely ocean. 


Tracing the phonograph, the note, and the shoes, I thought about the possibility that they both wanted it. 
The phonograph was playing invitingly, like it was left there playing on its own to draw anyone to the direction of the open room where it was at. Without it, probably, the guard would not locate the note left beside the suitcase. It was placed in a perfect spot to glance upon, as if it was there to be discovered because it had to. Also, it was not even wrinkled, but on the paper, it had there an inky stamp of someone's fingerprint. The way it was written was so casual and composed. It did not evoke even a sense of remorse nor regret, but just a casual apology for leaving such kind of inconvenience to a stranger. And when the patrol guard spotted the pairs of shoes, it was unnaturally aligned. One could have thought that no one attempted to jump off the vessel, however, it was an ocean, and the chance of getting out of their alive was improbable. In addition, no one would definitely jumped into there, unless, they wanted to end their life. Despite his fright, the patrol guard collected his grip and still managed to blow his whistle which then echoed throughout the silence of the night. Perhaps, on their sleep, no one thought that in the midst of it, there were two lovers who were wakeful. And only the pretentiously calmed ocean witnessed their freedom.

After I finished the few episodes of The Hymn of Death, I was left unfinished. I was bombarded a lot with my own wonderings, that's why, for days I had been pondering about their story and the many things that could have happened if only this and that did not happen. What added up more is the fact that I was not aware that the episode I finished watching was already its finale. And although I know everything on its last minute until its ending made sense, I felt like I was still gasping for another queue of episodes, and I was not ready yet to finish their story because the drama had already put me at the peak of anticipation, only to find out that I was still hanging even it was already ended.  

I also found out that The Hymn of Death was inspired by true-to-life events although I was not sure if it has been accurately depicted in the drama. Since it was hard to trace the life of both Kim u-Jin and Yun Sim-Deok due to the limited resources, I will just then set my focus on the drama itself.

There were a lot of striking scenes throughout the course of my watching experience, however, what caught hold of me, was the very few mentions of name of this Japanese novelist. The first time I heard of him, which I failed then to recall immediately (so, I had to re-watch that scene), was when Yun Sim-Deok stepped in the room carefully. As she walked further, there revealed the sightly view of a man who's front onto the sunlit window. He was immersed, and his conviction in every read word, was calm. As soon as he finished reciting the poem, he was caught by the unwelcome voice of a stranger who then mentioned the man behind the poem he was reading: Takeo ArishimaI did not take note of his name. I thought he would just passed by. Not until when I was on the middle of the second episode, that's before the eventual exchange of their unwanted goodbyes, when Kim U-Jin and Yun Sim-Deok were stopped, in the bustling road, by the toss of newspapers in the air. Takeo Arishima was said, committed suicide with his lover who, later I found out, was a married woman. When I learned about Takeo Arishima's life, I could not dismiss the idea that both him and Kim U-Jin were kind of similar in a way especially of their circumstances. 

How coincidental their lives were? 

I was also particularly intrigued by their similarities. Takeo Arishima was, like Kim U-Jin, a son of a wealthy family. However, due to their circumstances, they were grounded by their filial duties and were restricted then to pursue the life they wanted. Both of them sought refuge in the cavern of literariness-- Arishima, with his poems and novels; U-Jin, with his playwrights. In the world where they lived strictly, both of them respectively found their peace through their lovers. In the drama, Yun Sim-Deok became his assurance, the lullaby who calmed his mental cacophonies, the woman he loved but should never loved because...he was already married. Takeo Arishima met Akiko Hatano when he was already widowed. However, the case was, Hatano was the one who's married. Despite the reality, Arishima continued to be her illicit paramour just like Sim-Deok to u-Jin. Because of the piled-up misery, pain and heartaches, they got overwhelmed by the surge of adversities. Both of them were held in their throats and their hands were tied and their voice were silenced, and they could not breathe anymore. By the last episode, U-Jin and Sim-Deok finally met and sailed together to Joseon. This was their whereabouts before the patrol guard heard the phonograph on the first episode. It was connected. 

I was thinking so hard about their composure. They were heavy hearted for sure but they looked strangely relaxed and carefree. Although, I had already had my assumptions with me throughout the series because of what happened in the pilot episode, I was still made to believe that probably they did not do it. They might just took off their shoes and walked around the ship late at night in barefoot. 

But who I was kidding?

When they swayed their bodies along with the gloomy whisper of the wind, their eyes were in between melancholy and bliss. But more than anything, as they finally kissed for the first time, I felt they wanted it, they really did. They wanted their happiness, and the only choice left for them by the world...was to calm their souls. The splash of the water slightly changed the tempo of the nightly lullabies, but despite of it, it was certain enough, that it was their melody hitting the calmness of the ocean and one silent night, there were two lovers who finally found their peace.  


What if Takeo Arishima did not commit suicide with his lover? 

The more I think of it, it seems that Kim U-Jin was a great admirer of Takeo Arishima. And of all the Japanese novelist at their time, why it seems U-Jin had this intersection, although not on a personal level with the novelist, but they really had almost identical happenings especially on their respective later years. Arishima was born ahead of U-Jin, they had almost 19 years gap, but their lives together were still extended over to one another. Arishima might not know or heard about this young playwriter but U-Jin had seemed to have a particular regard to the novelist. And after learning the death of Arishima with his lover, it had almost made me beleive that U-Jin was somewhat religiously following the track of Arishima even in the aspect of death. After being widowed for 7 years, Arishima met Hatano, a married woman and an editor. Like in the story of U-Jim and Sim-Deok, their forbidden love was discovered by Hatano's husband himself. This unfortunately led them to commit suicide by hanging themselves together. It reminded me then on the death of U-Jin and Sim-Deok who, together also, killed themselves by jumping off from the sailing vessel. It was also said that due to isolated location, people struggled to find the bodies of Arishima and Hatano, if it weren't for the notes they left behind probably they wouldn't be discovered. This made me linked to the note which, in the series, was left and placed easily near the phonograph. 

Was it a coincidence?

Or was it U-Jin's obsession to Arishima that made him do the same and almost the exact thing?

I could not help but think about what was going on in the mind of U-Jin. Throughout the series, aside from that emotional outburst he had with his father and few crying scenes, the dominant face I could see through his personality was reservation. Definitely, there was sadness and agony evident in his eyes, the longing and resistance towards Sim-Deok, and anger towards the harsh society, but more than anything else, he was calm and reserved. I could not even hear his thoughts and I could not feel his warmth. Was it because, all through his life, he was restrained by all those unspoken rules? 

I was wondering how he learned about Takeo Arishima. And out of all the Japanese writers, why it seemed U-Jin has this special inclination not only through his works but even on the personal life of Arishima?

What if, there was no Takeo Arishima?

What if, he had another person whom he had a particular admiration to, and not him?

What if, Arishima did not commit suicide with his lover?

These were the few weighty what ifs I had after days of pondering about The Hymn of Death. I was deeply curious about Kim U-Jin really, that I could not dismiss the possibility that he might be obsessed with Arishima. And if ever, my what ifs happened actually, I felt like the ending would still be tragic. They might not end up together and forever, separately and apart, they will be living in a sad life. They would not have still the freedom they wanted. Or maybe I am thinking too much?

Yun Sim-Deok would have a chance still to be much more well-known as a soprano singer. And Kim U-Jin might have left his filial duties and continuously produced many literary works especially playwrights. But they would be unhappy without each other.

While writing this, I could not help but breathe sighs. It was, indeed, a tragic life story. 

In the end, whatever I tried to change with my what ifs, they might not still find their peace. For their peace was with each other, and the only possible way to find it was to be together in the another world where there was a freedom to be just them.

3/6/21

Once in a Summer

3/06/2021


Last night, I watched Once in a Summer.

I had no expectations when I started watching it. I hadn't heard about this film before from anyone I know, which is why I might have been just right in a comfortable spot.  Since the preview of this film wasn't available on Netflix and I was too lazy to search for it on YouTube, I just jumped into it right away. In the first few minutes, I was still trying to find my way into it. Admittedly, I was reluctant to continue watching it, wondering if I should push through, as there was a possibility I wouldn't like it once I was halfway through. 

Once in a Summer started with a slow and somewhat enigmatic buildup. The characters who opened the film disappeared as the story progressed. They had their fair share of moments, especially with Byung-Hun, but I don’t think they had any meaningful exchanges. I was hoping for more of his perspective, possibly a closer look at himself in his later years. I can’t recall if there’s a scene in the film that shows significant details about him in his prime, which I wish had been included. Even small moments of retrospection while he shared his past with Su-Jin were absent. Perhaps I badly wanted to witness his process of recalling those memories—to see the joy and remorse of his past etched into his wrinkled face. Those little details, I felt, were overlooked.

Was it because he was a professor at the time, and there was a deliberate effort to create an air of mystery around him? Or was it a conscious decision to provide minimal details about his older self to place greater emphasis on his youth in the flashback?

The reason I say this is that I noticed how he was portrayed with such care—offering only a few glimpses of his identity, which built a sense of mystery for the audience. During Su-Jin's next visit, he asked her to sing for him. The request felt so random that I immediately thought there must be a deeper meaning behind it. Su-Jin sang hesitantly—she looked awkward, yet displayed a small measure of confidence despite her lack of singing skill. Then, a smile flickered across the professor's face, and it was a moment of discovery. He even jokingly told her not to sing again, which revealed another layer of his character. I had assumed he was a stern and solemn man—his voice had given me that impression. I also thought he might dismiss her again despite her persistence. But when she asked if he wanted them to locate someone he had been longing to meet, he paused, and in that moment, I felt something significant was about to unfold.

A long flashback of events appeared abruptly.

I was slightly taken aback by the sudden shift to the past. I immediately thought about the way it was delivered— it wasn't that smooth, and, in a way, it felt like the first part of the flashback was forced. There was just no "solid" premise for it, in my opinion. Anyway, the flashback started with him sitting with other students, raising their fist in the air. They were shouting, and he looked so reluctant. By the look of it, the film started strong in that scene—it almost excited me.

Almost.

However, I was left there in that spot. 

Hanging. 

I was expecting there to be at least enough protest scenes to significantly set this film apart from others of its kind in a similar genre. Or perhaps, I was hoping to be enlightened on why they started that scene with "that" and what it was meant to convey. I also thought the story’s plot would revolve around that theme, and while it technically did, it was only emphasized as lightly as possible. As soon as the flashback transitioned to their arrival in the village, the focus drastically shifted to his encounters with the lovely Jung-In, which dominated most of the film.

Apparently, they drove out there to help the villagers in their rural tasks. I was not sure though if that was an act of initiative for the sense of service or they were asked to go there in the course of their protest. Whatever it was, as soon as they got there, I saw their genuine assistance to the people and how eventually they grew fond to the warmth of the countryside ablaze with the colors of summer. There's a simple touch of once life in every spectacular views of rural sceneries which effectively accentuated by the use of different shades of orange—a color of nostalgia. 

Throughout the film, the story revolved around Byung-hun's mischievous attempts to catch Jung-In.  He was impish and easy to the eyes especially for the older women in the village. However, he was drawn more to Jung-In when he saw her being scolded by the head of the village and was being whispered about by some people there. So, when he saw her walking along the fields without her usual bright face, he pestered her. Then the sky rained over the place, making both of them run and they stopped over that deserted house to wait for the raindrops to calm. I guess, that moment was the first serious one they had. I remember that I did not understand Jung-In's tale to Byung-Hun about the fish and the stone. But I remember when Byung-Hun gave her a stone with a fish-like carve that night when they missed the last bus and they had no choice but to walk for miles. 

Basically, it would be a simple simple film if it weren't for the light touch of the heightened student protest at their time. I just wish it was elaborately laid down more to add depth to the film and to the relationship between Byung-Hun and Jung-In. But it was actually evident that they wanted to set the focus more on the heartwarming romance of the two, with other concepts being in the peripheral of it all. 

I would like to take note of how their moments in the countryside took up the majority of the film while the one they had as soon as they set their foot in the bustling city of Seoul was so brief. As if it was mimicking the slow and gentle life in the rural by the use of the duration, and the more or less thirty minutes was rendered to their scenes in the city which mimics the fast-paced life people have there. 

The title was also trying to imply a sense of longing. The production could have just called it That Summer or something like that but there's the word "once" which we used when we mean that 'at a time in the past but not now or not anymore". It was like saying that that particular summer just passed by, and unfortunately it was only one summer experience which did not happen again or would not happen anymore because it was already gone— the people, the moment, the chance... 

More than anything else, Once in a Summer is a good film to watch at your leisure. It was not heavy but it could move you to reflect on things especially how its cinematography evoked a sense of nostalgia. It will also give you an idea of how's the life in South Korea was in the year of 1920 especially the tension between the country's regime and the prevailing political demonstration led by the students. 

This film will take you back to simple and old good times that was once so gentle but is almost now improbable to reach. 

2/19/21

One Spring Night

2/19/2021

I finished watching One Spring Night three days ago.

Earlier today, while having my breakfast with a cup of coffee, I remembered it again.

One Spring Night Official Trailer

I started watching this series maybe around late November last year. However, midway through it, I decided to stop. I can’t exactly say how long I took a break, but it wasn’t until last Christmas Eve that I resumed watching the next three episodes… only to stop again. Weirdly enough, I never felt like it had been ages whenever I picked it up again from where I had left off. However, that doesn’t mean I jumped back into it right away. Sometimes, I had to rewatch the whole thing from the beginning just to take it in and recall what was happening in the current episode.

With One Spring Night had an inner conflict with my conscience. I wasn’t sure if I should push through because I didn’t have the energy to finish it. Watching it felt exhausting, almost as if I were constantly out of breath—the scenes were dragging, the pacing often prompted deep, tedious sighs, and I felt weirdly dispirited after every episode. This kept happening to the point where I almost dropped it… many times. But I didn’t. I resumed watching it sometime around the first week of February, and three days ago, I finally reached the last episode. When I finished it, I felt heavy-hearted. Even though it ended on a vaguely happy note, my mind lingered on the bittersweet moments.

Don't Cross the Line

I was...FRUSTRATED. 

I can still recall how I kept muttering curses under my breath because I didn’t want to endure that scene any longer. The tension between the two leads as they faced each other on the street—I just couldn’t handle it. I was literally on the edge of my seat, overwhelmed by the sheer weight of the emotional intensity.

In that very scene, I could feel their vulnerability. Their eyes were speaking volumes. It was painful to watch their courage being bottled up at a moment when they should have dismissed the world and just run to meet halfway. That night, they stood on the same street but seemed to exist in entirely different spheres.

And that phone call? It was the only fragile line of intersection between those spheres.

Easier said than done. I know that thought crossed their minds as well. When Ji-Ho was about to take a leap of faith, Jeong-In's firm "Don't cross the line" stopped him mid-air. Jeong-In wanted that moment too—their moment—but crossing the line together with Ji-Ho might lead them nowhere, and she was scared of stepping into the unknown. Perhaps she wanted some assurance in their uncertainty. She probably didn’t want to lose herself along the way or drag him down, especially since their emotions had already been spiraling out of control.

After watching One Spring Night, it dawned on me that I’m still such a sucker for melodrama. Consuming melodrama is just another way of saying you have the patience to sit through its slow-burn build and seemingly unimportant segments. Because of this, I’ve developed an unusual tendency to be laid-back—perhaps this explains why I take longer than usual to finish a show. Maybe I subconsciously mimic its pacing? Or maybe I don’t.

At first, I felt guilty—big time. As I confessed, I had a lot of interruptions. I watched One Spring Night, then stopped, resumed, paused, and continued; this was my pattern. This isn’t exactly healthy for someone who usually binge-watches, but these instances don’t happen to me very often. So, I decided to embrace it: One Spring Night gave me the assurance to just keep my cool. This show allowed me to see the experience of watching it not as an opportunity to binge but as a chance to take it at a leisurely pace. I didn’t feel pressured to keep watching because I had to; instead, I saw it as something I could enjoy whenever I was ready to absorb it—and that felt more like me. 

One Spring Night Soundtrack Album

Speaking of me, I personally enjoyed the show's soundtrack album. At random moments, I’ll catch myself humming “We could still be happy” without even realizing it. I also love how the songs evoke a feeling of springtime when you listen to them. Each track was often played during moments of solitude, beautifully capturing the characters' silence and considered thoughts, while also highlighting their emotions. The soundtrack has a cozy vibe—perfect for a coffee shop setting. However, one thing puzzles me: why does it only feature English songs?

(If you’re interested, go check out the soundtrack! Pair it with a cup of coffee or hot tea, and you’ll find it makes an already intimate atmosphere even cozier with its springtime feels.)

Why Spring?

Of all the seasons, why does it have to be spring? As soon as I learned the title of the series, it rang a bell. The obvious interpretation aside, I became more interested in the production's choice of this specific title and the symbolic meanings it carries.

In literature, spring is featured more frequently than the other three temperate seasons. Its brevity makes it stand out, which explains why it is so poetically and symbolically pronounced. Spring evokes feelings of distant memories, regretful longing, and a pensive atmosphere. At the same time, it carries familiar symbolism: the beginning of a new life for someone emerging from the harsh cold of winter.

In One Spring Night, much of the filming was reportedly done on spring nights, and in the story itself, spring is what brings the leads together. Their first encounter—in the pharmacy—could even be seen as a spring morning, marking the start of their journey. 

From the very beginning, the story was grounded in meaningful conceptions.

In terms of symbolism, spring clearly represented a period of transition for almost all the characters, marking their journey toward renewal. The story began with each character carrying personal dilemmas that, as the plot progressed, challenged their beliefs and tested their hopes. However, these dilemmas were eventually confronted, strengthening their resolve and gently guiding them toward the tender beginning of a new chapter in their lives.