1/2/22

Year- End Countdown: Music Edition

1/02/2022

2021 hasn't officially ended yet, and here I am already in the process of listing down my Top 10 songs that I had, for a long time being, put torturously on repeat without the world knowing. Putting my earphones on is actually one of the best decisions I made this year when I had to look steady despite losing my cool already during working hours. 

Listening to my playlist especially during afternoon, two or three hours after I take my lunch, has been my routine since the year started. It is a test of patience when I had to exhaustingly look for a fresh and friendly kind of playlist-- the ones with some songs I am already familiar with but are mixed in with other songs that have this certain snap of mystery to tell to a first-time listener. It is more than rare to find something like that since you are more comfortable listening to your self-made playlist. Speaking of which, this year I have gone through many self-made playlists: I think, I have created five or more which at one point I got sick of that's why I deleted them all and made another one where I don't think it followed a certain theme. I have other recommendations from Pinterest which I just listened to for at least two times in a row then have already forgotten its existence since then, today I have only one considered main playlist which I named WFH Playlist (LOL!!!) however, I've noticed that I don't play it anymore, but instead listen more now to the songs I liked but not officially added to my playlist. 

My Top 10 songs are not, FYI, all new releases. Most are already years old which also have been my favorite but then forgotten until I remembered it again somewhere randomly. There are a lot of songs that I listened to for the first time while there are also others that feel like it is the first time listening to them. It is kind of hard squeezing so many good tracks into just "top 10" but I had to, to allow space for a little history and story. Here we go:

(Maybe I am going to list all the songs from the ones I am more connected just recently to the songs that have been sitting on my playlist but still feel refreshing and deserve to get an apology from me for murdering the replay button)

12/4/21

Lest

12/04/2021



Dearest,
I feel like, for a while, I haven't been at rest.
Lately, I don't feel much like myself or at my best.
In this world, that's just the way of things, I guess.
Life, yes, 
it sucks—
one moment, it's like a gritty urban drama,
then shortly after, it shifts into a sidesplitting jest.
It's like the splendid view of an erupting volcano—a beautiful disaster—
only to turn into some kind of old-time mess.
I suppose it’s a quest or a test:
to brave that sea with nothing but a vest.
So yes, 
step into the world dressed
with spirit and zest.

Greatly,
Dearest

Nay, Nasan Ka Na?

12/04/2021



Ilang araw na mababaw ang luha,
siguro ilang araw na rin kasing pinipigilan ang pag-iyak.
Nakakulong sa dibdib ang bigat
na hindi maibulalas.
Ang hirap buhatin,
nakakasakal sa lalamunan—
parang may pighating nakabara roon,
gusto nang kumawala,
pero tinitikom ang bibig
para hindi umimpit
ang sakit na ilang araw nang binobote
ng nagpapanggap na tapang.

Lihim na tumatakas ang luha, minsan,
tuwing walang tao at nakapako
ang titig sa kawalan.
Minsan tulala,
tinatanaw ang mga alaala
na sana’y kayang buhayin
ng pagnilay-nilay.

Nasaan ka na kaya, Nay?

Sumisikip ang dibdib tuwing
iniisip na marahil naglalakbay
ka lang mag-isa…
Tinatawag ang mga pangalan namin,
pero hindi na abot ng boses mo
ang mundong nilisan mo na.
At ang sakit isipin na hindi na kita makikita
tuwing umaga, paggising ko.
Hindi ka na hihingi sa akin ng pabor
na isabay ang kape mo sa pagtimpla ko.
Hindi na kita masusubuan ng kanin at hiniwa-hiwang saging.
Hindi mo na kami makukulit at pauutusan
na matulog sa gabi.

Nay, nasaan ka na?

Umiiyak ang puso ko.
Nalulungkot ang puso ko.

Hindi na uli kita makikita.
Gusto kitang makita, tulad ng mga nakaraang karaniwang araw.
Gusto kong muling mabuhay sa mga panahong iyon.
Dahil kasabay ng paglisan mo sa pisikal na mundo
ang pagpanaw ng bahagi ng puso ko.


SEE IT AS IT IS. NAME IT. STOP IT.

12/04/2021

There's a reason why, for the first time in a long while, I feel compelled to post something here on my account. I’m doing this in the hope that it reaches the person it’s meant for. Some might think I should confront him directly through a personal message rather than make him a blind item like this. However, his actions have gone too far—beyond anything I could have imagined. Not naming him is my way of dismissing his existence because a person like him doesn’t deserve to be addressed by his name. Instead, I’ll call him what he truly is: a HYPOCRITE, a COWARD, and TRASH.

Yesterday, Mama came home from her barangay duty with puffy eyes. I thought it was just another day for her, but when she came to me, fighting back tears, I almost cried myself. She told me about someone who, for over a year now, has been targeting her with sexist and cruel remarks. At first, I tried to brush it off, thinking, What else can I expect from a scumbag? But as she revealed more, my heart grew heavier with anger and hatred. How could someone stoop so low?

Mama had finally had enough and denounced him at the barangay. His defense? “It was just a joke.” Biro lang daw. What a joke, indeed.

"Hindi ka naman kagandahan..."

"Ginapang mo lang siguro ang asawa mo"

"Hindi ka nakapagtapos ng pag-aaral..."

"Nakikita pa kitang naka-panty nung bata ka pa"

These are the jokes he claims to have made. But no matter how I look at them, there’s nothing funny about them. Jokes are not meant to degrade or humiliate. What he’s said is not funny—it’s vile. And what’s worse, he knows exactly what’s happening in our lives, both past and present. How he gets his information, I don’t know, and I don’t care. What bothers me is how he uses that knowledge against Mama to spread malicious rumors.

He even had the audacity to complain about Mama not liking his Facebook posts and to joke about why she doesn’t treat him to food. How absurd!

What I can’t understand is how he feels entitled to say such things to Mama when they’re not even close—and has been doing so for over a year. Even if they were close (thankfully, they’re not), he’s old enough to know what’s appropriate and what isn’t. And now he’s upset that Mama reported him? Let me say this: I am beyond proud of Mama for standing up for herself. She knew when enough was enough, and she acted on it.

While I am proud of her bravery, I’m also filled with shame knowing this man plans to run for barangay office. How can someone so trashy think he’s fit to serve the community? The way he treats my mother speaks volumes. If he can do this to one woman, how can anyone believe that women in our community would be safe with him in power? He doesn’t even know the difference between a joke and an insult.

Hearing about this while I was on my work shift completely threw me off. His so-called jokes aren’t funny—they’re infuriating. And no one should ever blame a person for not finding their "jokes" amusing. Humor isn’t universal, and if your words hurt someone, that’s your cue to stop and apologize. Continuing despite their discomfort shows how problematic you are.

I keep replaying everything he’s said to Mama, and I can’t imagine how she managed to stay composed. Just hearing it secondhand fills me with rage; how much more pain must she have felt enduring it firsthand? It breaks my heart that this has been happening for so long and that I only found out about it yesterday. It breaks my heart that she’s been carrying this burden alone.

I’m posting this here now, hoping to raise awareness about a serious issue. Rape remarks, sexist humor, and demeaning jokes—against women or any minority group—are never acceptable. They’re never funny.

SEE IT FOR WHAT IT IS. NAME IT. STOP IT.

This was written on November 17, 9:54 AM. I was seething with anger as I wrote this, and I still am. Initially, I wanted to post this on Facebook, but fear held me back. I worry that doing so might lead to more bullying for Mama, not just from him but from others who support him. I fear that our neighbors, swayed by his "good deeds" (a thinly veiled attempt to buy their votes), might turn against us.

I feel guilty for not doing more for Mama. I should act, but I’m afraid it will cause her more trouble than resolution.

I hate that I’m waiting for another wave of anger to push me into action. I don’t want Mama to go through this again.

For now, I’m sharing this here to let it out into the world. This may be the least I can do, but I know I’m capable of more. I just don’t know when.

SO WHEN, THEA?

5/26/21

"Bargain Well Struck": A Conversation Analysis on the Slave's Euphemized Translation

5/26/2021

INTRODUCTION

It is unquestionable that a television series has become an outlet of many memorable lines, which we can recall in any moment of time. These lines of dialogues are scripted and fictional conversations between or among TV characters which are indeed fundamental to how televisual narrative works. Hence, dialogues move the story forward along in the direction of the plotline. In addition, it often illuminates the central theme of the series which is sustained from one season to another, even the forthcoming ones and beyond. Aside from the abovementioned, however, dialogues fulfill this another important function: the revelation of what's there within the character (social differences, intentions and personal stance/s). And this can actually be traced in one of the most, if not the most yet, far-famed drama series that is consumed by millions of viewers worldwide, including us. 

Game of Thrones is the story of a deadly game among powerful houses for control of the Seven Kingdoms of Westeros, and to sit atop the iron throne. Basically, we have chosen this as our material because of our personal inclinations toward the series. Aside from its spectacular storyline, brilliant execution, exceptional casting and great camera work, Game of Thrones has captured us with its highly engaging dialogue that interplay with its respective characters. Honestly, there are so many dialogues in every episode that display exquisite intricacy leaving much of an impression to the viewers--to us. One of the many particular scenes could be on Episode 3 on its third season.

This scene is so compelling by its dialogue which accentuates the rising action of the episode and illuminates each TV character present. A slaver who insists upon a dragon; a queen who is in need of soldiers. Both of them could have been caught up in the chaos of language barrier and might have ended up in a dispute if it is not for Missandei who becomes more than just a servant but turns into a go-between. Accordingly, Huang (2005) pointed out that individuals often avoid taboos, odious ideas, and what are socially complicated by substituting them with polite phrases and accurate words (2005, pp.46-47). And little do we know, we are already using what we called 'Euphemism'. As social tools, euphemism is widely used in every level of society to meet certain communicative needs, show respect, humility, and politeness. These tools could make our speech more expressive and colorful since they adapt speech to different situations (Alkire, 2002). 

The objective of this study is to analyze how the employment of 'Euphemism' in the translation of the slave emphasizes her social status, how it saves one's face through Politeness, and helps the negotiation between the Queen and her Lord to come to a harmonious level.

In order to answer these questions, it is best to use Conversational Analysis as an approach. Conversation analysis draws its conclusion mainly on the discovery of how the participants understand and respond to one another on their turn at talks and how it reveals their intentions, status and stance particularly through its language use, voice and the sequences of their action generated. For these observations, that particular scene in GOT Season 3 Episode 3 thus provides a fertile and challenging ground for conversation analysis.