1/2/22

Year- End Countdown: Music Edition


2021 hasn't officially ended yet, and here I am already in the process of listing down my Top 10 songs that I had, for a long time being, put torturously on repeat without the world knowing. Putting my earphones on is actually one of the best decisions I made this year when I had to look steady despite losing my cool already during working hours. 

Listening to my playlist especially during afternoon, two or three hours after I take my lunch, has been my routine since the year started. It is a test of patience when I had to exhaustingly look for a fresh and friendly kind of playlist-- the ones with some songs I am already familiar with but are mixed in with other songs that have this certain snap of mystery to tell to a first-time listener. It is more than rare to find something like that since you are more comfortable listening to your self-made playlist. Speaking of which, this year I have gone through many self-made playlists: I think, I have created five or more which at one point I got sick of that's why I deleted them all and made another one where I don't think it followed a certain theme. I have other recommendations from Pinterest which I just listened to for at least two times in a row then have already forgotten its existence since then, today I have only one considered main playlist which I named WFH Playlist (LOL!!!) however, I've noticed that I don't play it anymore, but instead listen more now to the songs I liked but not officially added to my playlist. 

My Top 10 songs are not, FYI, all new releases. Most are already years old which also have been my favorite but then forgotten until I remembered it again somewhere randomly. There are a lot of songs that I listened to for the first time while there are also others that feel like it is the first time listening to them. It is kind of hard squeezing so many good tracks into just "top 10" but I had to, to allow space for a little history and story. Here we go:

(Maybe I am going to list all the songs from the ones I am more connected just recently to the songs that have been sitting on my playlist but still feel refreshing and deserve to get an apology from me for murdering the replay button)

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12/4/21

Lest



Dearest,
I feel like, for a while, I haven't been at rest.
Lately, I don't feel much like myself or at my best.
In this world, that's just the way of things, I guess.
Life, yes, 
it sucks—
one moment, it's like a gritty urban drama,
then shortly after, it shifts into a sidesplitting jest.
It's like the splendid view of an erupting volcano—a beautiful disaster—
only to turn into some kind of old-time mess.
I suppose it’s a quest or a test:
to brave that sea with nothing but a vest.
So yes, 
step into the world dressed
with spirit and zest.

Greatly,
Dearest

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Nay, Nasan Ka Na?



Ilang araw na mababaw ang luha,
siguro ilang araw na rin kasing pinipigilan ang pag-iyak.
Nakakulong sa dibdib ang bigat
na hindi maibulalas.
Ang hirap buhatin,
nakakasakal sa lalamunan—
parang may pighating nakabara roon,
gusto nang kumawala,
pero tinitikom ang bibig
para hindi umimpit
ang sakit na ilang araw nang binobote
ng nagpapanggap na tapang.

Lihim na tumatakas ang luha, minsan,
tuwing walang tao at nakapako
ang titig sa kawalan.
Minsan tulala,
tinatanaw ang mga alaala
na sana’y kayang buhayin
ng pagnilay-nilay.

Nasaan ka na kaya, Nay?

Sumisikip ang dibdib tuwing
iniisip na marahil naglalakbay
ka lang mag-isa…
Tinatawag ang mga pangalan namin,
pero hindi na abot ng boses mo
ang mundong nilisan mo na.
At ang sakit isipin na hindi na kita makikita
tuwing umaga, paggising ko.
Hindi ka na hihingi sa akin ng pabor
na isabay ang kape mo sa pagtimpla ko.
Hindi na kita masusubuan ng kanin at hiniwa-hiwang saging.
Hindi mo na kami makukulit at pauutusan
na matulog sa gabi.

Nay, nasaan ka na?

Umiiyak ang puso ko.
Nalulungkot ang puso ko.

Hindi na uli kita makikita.
Gusto kitang makita, tulad ng mga nakaraang karaniwang araw.
Gusto kong muling mabuhay sa mga panahong iyon.
Dahil kasabay ng paglisan mo sa pisikal na mundo
ang pagpanaw ng bahagi ng puso ko.


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