I know I just had a good sleep, when I wake up right in the morning with my dream still perching in my groggy consciousness.
Today, I dreamt about a double rainbow. I was looking at it from the inside of our home with my sister and nephew. At first, I was the only one who noticed the multicolored arch but right after a few blinks, there it was, another arch of wonderment– a double rainbow! I won their attention with my gasp at the view. Then, I woke up.
While working earlier in the morning, I was thinking about it on and off. I was tempted to take a quick break just so I can google it up which I actually did, but I was only able to do it before I started writing on this. Since I was trying to buy time so I could not binge watch Normal People (I am on its 7th episode, btw) I decided to read the interpretation of my dream about the double rainbow.
According to what I've read, which actually a lot, having a rainbow in your dreams generally symbolizes a turning point in your life or a new beginning. Since seeing a rainbow in real life is always unpredictable, they say it can mean something unexpected is about to happen. In short, something in your life is about to shift course. How I wish it is a pot of gold where they say that can be found at the end of its arch! I just want to be rich, please!
Anyway, how about if it's a double rainbow?
It says that seeing a double rainbow in your dreams means harmony and peace, and finding your life's purpose. And how ironic it is because I am right in the stage of my life where I am deeply confused about what I want and what should I do. Is this dream a sign that I just have to go through this, not basically putting up, but since I am still in the early steps of my new profession then maybe I have to give this uncertainty a chance to grow in me. If this is something that I could not embrace despite trying then maybe I can give myself a chance to be free from this confusion.
I also found this article (yes I read a few articles because I like to find something more to validate and justify this feeling I have right now) online where it says that seeing two or more rainbows at once in a dream means that you will make peace with yourself. And it sounds beautiful and comforting to me. I feel like ever since I resigned, I am living with a push-and-pull mindset like what if, by chance, I did not leave my first job, were things have been much different compared to what it is today? Maybe I should have been at ease, working more freely, and enjoying the great working culture of the company together with my favorite people in the team. But what if I push through that then possibly I would be stagnant, working probably but not growing, maybe I will not be able to feel a daily heart attack because I don't know how to do this and that and I am too lame to ask people around so I will just beat myself up until I get drained of my thoughts, maybe I will not also experience another shot of reality that there's no way to go around your fear but just to get through it, and maybe if I had settled there in my first job then I wouldn't be able to write again like this and dream about a double rainbow (lol)
The same article also tells that my dream is about people like me who's currently going through a difficult period in life because of identity crisis and the regret of missed opportunities. That burden is said to be pulling me down and stunting my progress. However, this double rainbow is an indication that I will get past to it soon and it will bring me into realization that I can do something today that will mark my future ahead. If I will just be persistent, it will not be impossible for the better days to arrive at me. This time, this sounds hope to me.
This strange dream I had today was something unexpected Iike a rainbow suddenly appearing at our view. I don't usually do these kind of things because it as sounds as superstitious. However, my lack of stability in everything at the moment brings me to believe in this at the very least. Maybe this small thing is what I need. Just a little breather, a reminder that out of nowhere the universe will offer you something vague in disguise of what you truly looking for: a sign, validation, or justification. Just to calm your heart and lull your mind away from constant worries that the world is not trying to overwhelm you but you just too wary of your decisions that it kills your excitement instead.
I hope I'll look back into this entry few months from now and I hope by that time I have finally adjusted in this new chapter of life. There is really no way to deal with it but just to deal with it.
Goodluck, friend!